Pranam to Parampoojya Parameshwar Sadguru Swami Anilji Maharaj
Atmadhnyan Shighra Sadhana… 24
(English Translation of the series in Hindi by Brahmatmaikdhnyani Sant Swami Anilji Maharaj)
Getting The Knowledge (Dhnyan) material to read, study or get a chance to listen from a Sage, Eminent Atmadhnyani is so much of a great fortune, which can not be imagined in our ignorant state.
Even after getting such an opportunity, the quest for Knowledge is kindled only when strong desire arise to understand Parmatma due to certain reason or due to the shock treatment by an
Eminent Atmadhnyani Guru.
The shock by the Atmadhnyani Guru is very acute, which rarely can be withstood by any disciple. However if it is ordained by Guru to bestow the ultimate knowledge (Dhnyan), then Guru keeps on subjecting the disciple to very arduous tests and keep on giving the shocks.
The stories given in scriptures relating to the arduous tests to which the disciples are subjected are not false.
Truth is that we just want to show off our love and service towards Guru to the people but surely keep a safe distance from the Guru. Some people make a show of their love to Guru but whenever there is an order from Guru for donation or service they do not do the needful, criticise or leave the Guru.
Some people are ready to sacrifice everything for Guru, however with their misfortune the Guru is not qualified Guru and they get to know only supporting means, and not the Knowledge.
Inappropriate, unqualified Guru understands quickly as to whom of his disciples will give him money, property and who will be good at serving. Where as Atmadhnyani Guru knows the love for God in the hearts of the disciples as well as their capability to absorb Knowledge.
Such disciples having capability to absorb Knowledge are further examined by Guru to ascertain that the disciple’s faith in Guru is unshakable to the extent of being able to tolerate the shock.
I have used the word, “shock”, because the illusory knowledge of this birth and the ingrained ignorance collected over the past thousands of births can not be nullified without the shock treatment. In Scriptures this is known as, “Vijatiya pratyayakar vrutti” (Realisation through challenging the established notions), or “Anatma padarthakar vrutti” (Process of Realisation of Anatma, falsehood).
When experienced Guru starts shaking the established beliefs of the disciple, he gets extremely uneasy, and is subjected to enormous turmoil.
Many disciples do not pay attention to such statements by Guru, or start slowly withdrawing from him. Some of them make mockery of him at his back. Rare are those who believe in the weird looking statements, listen, think and obey.
I am writing my experiences here, which are only meant for guidance of the Seekers. I am not any Mahatma, Eminent person, Sidhha Purush, Dhnyani, Yogi, not person bearing titles like Mahamandaleshwar, Jagatguru, Maharshi, Acharya. I do not know Sanskrit nor have I studied Ved.
Knowledge teachings from Guru and study of three four books that is all is my spiritual wealth. I am not qualified for any debate or Shastrartha. Because my Guru made me Guru, I have become Guru; however I have only 5 – 10 disciples, nothing else. One small Ashram is there, that is also not mine, belongs to a Trust, of which I am not a member. The name of my Guru is “Khapti”. Khapti means mad!
How can I be different from my Guru!
Worship, prayers, faith on Guru and study of religious books was done traditionally right from childhood. Family life was full of agonies. I undertook all those remedies which are normally done generally by all the family people.
Somebody told that taking initiation from a Guru would help, so took initiation from a Sidhha Purush of Dutta Sampraday.
Because of severe mental worries could not concentrate on the meditations told by the Guru, but was doing worship, praise, prayer, psalms and related things daily. Some time would visit the Guru’s town and serve in the Ashram there. Had immense faith in Guru.
So many years passed but my condition kept on deteriorating. However inclination towards spirituality was increasing.
Some wonders started happening, like actually seeing omkar at omkareswar, etc.
My favorite deity was Lord Ganesh. I used to visit all the famous Ganesh temples and would bring Ganesh idol
Or Ganesh Photo from each temple with their number rising to 28. I used to daily worship them with 28 red flowers and would recite Atharvashirsh. Whenever 28 red flowers would not be available, I would weep thinking Lord Ganesh would be annoyed now.
I do not know whether past good deeds bore the fruits, blessings of Guru or grace of Lord Ganesh, that I suddenly met 102 years old Sidhha Purush.
Family life sufferings had increased immensely, however I couldn’t understand that Spiritual life had begun in true sense. First shock itself, given by Maharaj was so much severe!